I'm a Geek just like your American/Black/Mexican/whatever

Can't help it...

Can't fight it...

Why fight it...

I recently downloaded 40 years worth of X-men comic books off the internet... Yeah... original advertisements included too, though that gets kind of annoying after the first issue.

And speaking of first issue, those 40 years come complete with ALL the early issues, you know, 1, 2 all the way up to 400, not an issue missed, even the reprints after issue 60.....3 or 8(I know these things) are there. Now I finally get to see the pulse pounding/retarded battles with Magneto, the Vanisher, Blob, the Brotherhood, and many more... Thats bragging rights right there I'll have you know.

In other news, Along with the X-men, I also downloaded the complete library of Sin City, V for Vendetta, 300, and a few some other one called Cable and Deadpool (corny but I like it). Sin City is probably the best outta what I got I think, despite how "evil" and "focused on the dark side" everyone said the movie was. Frank Millers got some talent, ya gotta give him that. Anyway, I'm gonna go.... read.... just thought I'd let all you other geeks know that.

Be jealous, be very jealous.


Thought of the Day: Everyone said I was crazy when I said Kevin Bacon was controlling peoples minds through his $#itty movies... they'll see... They'll all see

This Post Is For You.

This post is for 72 Degrees Fahrenheit.
This post is for Piano.
This post is for Symmetry.
This post is for Wireless Appliances.
This post is for Friday Night.
This post is for Muse.
This post is for Thanksgiving.
This post is for Back to the Future.
This post is for Chocolate Cake.
This post is for Fingers.
This post is for Final Fantasy.
This post is for Sun Light.
This post is for Orange Juice.
This post is for Easy Chairs.
This post is for Love.
This post is for Microwave Ovens.
This post is for Deadpool.
This post is for Obsessions.
This post is for Stalkers (wink).
This post is for Dwight Schrute.
This post is for Michigan.
This post is for Memories.
This post is for Girls.
This post is for Grammar.
This post is for Stories.
This post is for The Imagination
This post is for Winning a Debate.
This post is for Warcraft III.
This post is for Yellow.
This post is for F#*@ing the FCC.
This post is for Day Dreams.
This post is for Believing in something that defies all Logic.
This post is for Erasers.
This post is for The Essence of Random.
This post is for The Plural of Hippo.
This post is for Climaxes.
This post is for Knowing every word to a Song.


And Speaking of Climaxes.


This post is for anyone who's ever made me stay up all night thinking about them. For anyone who has ever made me change, without asking. For anyone who still believes in me, and still believes I can be something great, even though to this day I've never done anything extraordinary. For anyone who would stick with me no matter what I did.


And for the Climax of all Climaxes...



This post is for You.........







.......Mostly.........








..........Well sorta


P.S. I just wanted to put this picture I made on photo shop up.... cuz its pretty much the shiz. and well, it works pretty well for an ink blot type thingy, seeing as how blue and black are the most imaginative colors (at least to me) so yeah, don't ask me what it means, because well, I can't tell you..... and well, you know where I'm going with this....Thought of the Day: Cloud Strife uses Paul Mitchael.... Shouldn't you?

I feel Like Peter Pan (without the gay tights)

I bet a lot of you people right now are thinking "why the gay title", well the simplest answer to that is, I can do what ever the hell I want, but that isn't the most explanatory answer. No, the most explanatory one would be that, over this last month, I have had, yet another revelation. Actually on second thought, a revelation might not be the best word... more of... A wish to far, if you will. "what wish is that?" you may say. Well before I even begin to tell you I want you to take another good long look at the title, then read the below.

I never want to grow up... thats right, I hate it, its terrible. If you don't believe me, you can see for yourself just how much worse everything gets when you get older, simply by examining this chart

P.S. I'm an honest person so I've lain it all out including shower time and Midnight computer time (you know what I'm talking about)
As you can see the Fun Level decreased exponentially from the time I was ten till now, what was once at a solid 75 is now at 20! and this is because of rising responsibility and depression. Now dew to the increase in depression (and just things that happen at that time) it has let to greatly increased shower time, which in turn led to the steady increase of "Midnight Computer time". All this time wasted on things like that has led to a decrease in originality which I have been forcing to regain these last years (notice the rise). Anyway, all this to say, getting older is not fun and I can prove it. I have made here a list of all the fun things i can't do anymore dew to my age (at least can't do them without looking like a complete idiot).

*Ahem*

I want to be able to run around the house in my batman underwear again. I want to wake up a 6 A.M. on a Saturday so I can watch cartoons till 5 P.M. I want to be able to watch the news or a political debate without ever once thinking "that is so true". I want to run around in my back yard swing a stick and ACTUALLY believe I am the prophesied warrior from earth sent to liberate the magical people of god knows where from an evil dictator. I want to believer in God AND Final Fantasy. I want to drive to town ever month to buy all the latest Comic books (never actually got to do that, but I'm sure downloading them off Limewire just isn't the same). I want to be able to tell my friends that my Paladin does 40 - 75 AOE Damage plus an additional 10 Damage per second with level 3 Immolation, and sound like a complete bad ass. I want to remember why my fingers mean so much to me (I have forgotten why I hold them in such high regards, all I know is I do. Maybe it has something to do with the fact I am a video game playing Pianist?). I want to make a 10 to 20 minute rock remix of "the song that never ends" in a style mix of Muse and Ray Charles and play it at the next big social gathering... Ok so that has nothing to do with being a kid but I want to do it all the same. I want to drink Pine Sol just so I can have people correct me. I want to be naive enough to fill the dishwasher with dish soap causing the whole kitchen to flood with bubbles. Then I want to put the bubbles on my face and hide in the fireplace saying "Ho ho ho" when any boring adult without a sense of humor or a penis large enough to keep him happy walked by. I want to dye my hair blue. I want to run around TOWN in my batman underwear (I said it twice because its sounding really fun right about now).


But most of all....


most of all....


I don't want to forced to make a decision I never wanted to make. I don't want to have it always in the back of my mind, distracting me from anything and everything, nagging me, saying "you need to decide by the end of the year, START DECIDING". I don't want people to try and give me their own dreams and their own lives and their own goals, and try to make me believe that they are mine. I don't want people to question my faith for things in life that I'M not sure about. I want people to see that no matter what I choose, I can make it the right choice. I want people to stop being so God damned self righteous, and stop trying to force everything they chose in their lives on me. I don't want to believe that if I don't choose option A that I am a bad person. But I just... I don't want to disappoint anyone who's opinions I respect, but I know that no matter what I choose... I will...
It's a civil war, and I'm right in the middle, just like....... Kansas... or Spider-man... or something.

I'm sure most of you know what I'm talking about, if you do, please just... don't try and force me into anything. Have enough faith in me that I will make the right choice, WHATEVER that may be. Even if its not YOUR choice, just trust that its the right one. And just know that, if I screw up my life its MY fault, not yours. Open the doors people, but don't push me through.


In other news, I thought I'd Lighten the mood (seeing as how my "thoughts" aren't funny if your thinking to hard) by letting everyone know that is a holiday. Thats right its "Steven Colbert: I am America (and so can you)" Day. So lets all celebrate by drinking beer, skipping any school or jobs, and listen to some great Phil Collins tracks... err, on second thought, scratch that last one, and on that note....


Thought of the Day: Phil Collins always reminds me of Tarzan and suicide. I think it goes back to that time I tried to kill my self when I realized I was had to hear more then two of his songs while watching that movie.